28th January, 2011
The adventure is coming to it's final hours and as i sit in hightlands coffee with 'betty and jets' blaring in my ear i'll try to concentrate on the job at hand....see if i can get back to that feeling of each place, the experiences and the lessons...knowing that first time experiences are hard, frustrating and wonderous all at the same time....
my last days in Tuy Hoa....
Tuesday 25th - i spent the morning at the Fishing Village school and had so much fun with the kids...there was a bit of impromtued dancing as well as my english lesson of course...we all had a great laugh and when Nguyen explained to them that i was not coming back the kids surrounded me, high fiving and hugging me...all saying 'thankyou teacher'...it was the cutest moment and very very touching...i love that so many things have made my heart smile here..it makes up for the sadness it has also created....... Well for my last afternoon I spent it at the Special School i worked with Duoc my little 2 month old baby..( i use the word 'my' cause i want to!!) i spent a little time with Tro but this was my last chance to hold and love this little baby...and yes i'd still like to take him home, more so now than before. The mums had just fed him so he was a happy little camper and fully awake..i stretched his little limbs and did the sequence of motor skills with him...helping him to reach out his arms and legs...giving him some time in the 'childs pose' position balanced on a roll pillow (so cute..looks like a frog)...then sitting him up to see the world and taking him outside...probably for the first time...he loved the fresh air and the look of the trees...he was so alert...taking in everything he could and before long it was hard for him to keep his eyes open...i held him for the rest of time in different positions as i know he generally only gets to lay on this back.....he's so small i held him curled up in one arm while his face rested in my hand...i spent the time silently saying my goodbyes to him and holding Tro for the last time, hands on his heart and sending him all the love i had to give.....
When we eventually left i felt at peace....i had told my little men how much i loved them and that I prayed for protection over them in the future...i know i have to now leave it up to the Universe to take them on their path but i at least left knowing i gave them the love i came to give freely...as much as that never seems enough it was all i had to give in the end.
that night i had my last session with the kids from HOA...it was fun...bingo numbers, some dancing and singing and i presented each of the kids with lucky money for the new year....(the money is put into special envelopes that are red and you give the person a special wish for their future)..their grateful and surprised smiles and best wishes to me was...well... endearing...and heart warming...i'll actually miss my english lessons with them and their teacher who was my most attentive student and the one i had to keep telling to be quiet so he didn't prompt answers from the students!!
The following day I got to spend the morning with the kids from the Little School....Chan and I took the class together and it was great fun...she taught the kids a new song (the penguin song...it's so cute with actions) and we all looked equally ridiculous when doing the actions to the words....again lots of laughs....took some photo's of the milk mustaches and ended the session with some group pics.....it was a wonderful end to my voluteering and left me on a high...
When we came back to the house Miss Chi had arranged food for the blessing to the chicken..... a ritual to send the chicken back up to heaven and allow him to come back with riches for you and your family....it was a feast to say the very least.....and it was nice that this was my last meal shared with everyone....
We presented Miss chi and Nyugen with their gifts ( a charm to hang on their necklace) and i gave them each some lucky money.
before i knew it i was saying goodbye once more and heading off to the airport..surprising enough for such a small town they have an airport which i was truly grateful for...didn't fancy another 9 hour bus ride!!
I arrived in HoChiMinh and caught a taxi to my apartment which i again splerged on...a full one bedroom with a kitchen...yeh...i actually got to cook my own meals!!!...what a treat...vegetables that weren't overcooked....an amazing treat after 3 months of overcooked veggies....
The apartment was great, the hotel was lovely but this place is sooooo busy....have to admit places like that by myself are just plain old scary for me....after a trip into the market place and then being ripped off by the taxi driver i thought it best to just stick around my little apartment and the pool....time to just relax and absorb the last 3 months....
Had one last spoil on my last day at the hairdressers who do all manner of other spa treatments and i have to say it was the absolute best i've ever experienced overseas and in Australia....the guy who did my hair was actually quite good looking as well...by the end of the treatment i felt totally pampered and somewhat beautiful....it was nice feeling like a girl again......and wouldn't you know it...on my last hour of my trip the hairdresser tried picking me up....how nice did that make me feel!!!....no time for romance, have to head home now and face my reality with a new perspective..
the flight home was long and uncomfortable, not to mention the seemingly neverending turbulance that scared most of us on the flight.....
I arrived in Sydney and was running late to catch my domestic flight back home...i managed to catch the eye of one of the customs men and asked what time it was....i explained my international flight was late and that i have a flight leaving shortly....he pushed me ahead of the line which at that stage was about 50 people deep....my customs lady was lovely and took one look at my items to declare, had a quick chat with me and off i went...
29th January, 2011
when i finally touched down on the gold coast i cried...not because i was happy to be home but because it now seems like i lived an amazing dream with experiences that have touched my heart and changed my persepective and now that i am home i am scared of losing all i have gained.....do i have to wake up from this dream or can i now create a new journey and keep my new found heart connection at home where i felt i lost it in the first place....
I know it's time to move and rethink my life, there is now a lot to consider and a lot of changes to make....the next part of my journey is truly finding my feet and my purpose....something that makes me feel alive from the inside out....
I am scared but i am excited about what lies ahead....i finally realized that i am capable of doing so much more than i give myself credit for....and i can make a difference in peoples lives...even if it is just bringing a genuine heart felt smile to their day and sharing my love.
30th January, 2011
I know i am truly blessed to have had the time i had and the experiences i did and when i asked for a guru to come into my life i know that they arrived in their different sizes, shapes and ages to teach me....and to those amazing gurus who affected my outlook and touched my heart i have no words to match the deepest gratitude of those lessons you presented me....but my gratitude will hopefully now be in my actions moving forward in my next journey.
xxxx
The adventure is coming to it's final hours and as i sit in hightlands coffee with 'betty and jets' blaring in my ear i'll try to concentrate on the job at hand....see if i can get back to that feeling of each place, the experiences and the lessons...knowing that first time experiences are hard, frustrating and wonderous all at the same time....
my last days in Tuy Hoa....
Tuesday 25th - i spent the morning at the Fishing Village school and had so much fun with the kids...there was a bit of impromtued dancing as well as my english lesson of course...we all had a great laugh and when Nguyen explained to them that i was not coming back the kids surrounded me, high fiving and hugging me...all saying 'thankyou teacher'...it was the cutest moment and very very touching...i love that so many things have made my heart smile here..it makes up for the sadness it has also created....... Well for my last afternoon I spent it at the Special School i worked with Duoc my little 2 month old baby..( i use the word 'my' cause i want to!!) i spent a little time with Tro but this was my last chance to hold and love this little baby...and yes i'd still like to take him home, more so now than before. The mums had just fed him so he was a happy little camper and fully awake..i stretched his little limbs and did the sequence of motor skills with him...helping him to reach out his arms and legs...giving him some time in the 'childs pose' position balanced on a roll pillow (so cute..looks like a frog)...then sitting him up to see the world and taking him outside...probably for the first time...he loved the fresh air and the look of the trees...he was so alert...taking in everything he could and before long it was hard for him to keep his eyes open...i held him for the rest of time in different positions as i know he generally only gets to lay on this back.....he's so small i held him curled up in one arm while his face rested in my hand...i spent the time silently saying my goodbyes to him and holding Tro for the last time, hands on his heart and sending him all the love i had to give.....
When we eventually left i felt at peace....i had told my little men how much i loved them and that I prayed for protection over them in the future...i know i have to now leave it up to the Universe to take them on their path but i at least left knowing i gave them the love i came to give freely...as much as that never seems enough it was all i had to give in the end.
that night i had my last session with the kids from HOA...it was fun...bingo numbers, some dancing and singing and i presented each of the kids with lucky money for the new year....(the money is put into special envelopes that are red and you give the person a special wish for their future)..their grateful and surprised smiles and best wishes to me was...well... endearing...and heart warming...i'll actually miss my english lessons with them and their teacher who was my most attentive student and the one i had to keep telling to be quiet so he didn't prompt answers from the students!!
The following day I got to spend the morning with the kids from the Little School....Chan and I took the class together and it was great fun...she taught the kids a new song (the penguin song...it's so cute with actions) and we all looked equally ridiculous when doing the actions to the words....again lots of laughs....took some photo's of the milk mustaches and ended the session with some group pics.....it was a wonderful end to my voluteering and left me on a high...
When we came back to the house Miss Chi had arranged food for the blessing to the chicken..... a ritual to send the chicken back up to heaven and allow him to come back with riches for you and your family....it was a feast to say the very least.....and it was nice that this was my last meal shared with everyone....
We presented Miss chi and Nyugen with their gifts ( a charm to hang on their necklace) and i gave them each some lucky money.
before i knew it i was saying goodbye once more and heading off to the airport..surprising enough for such a small town they have an airport which i was truly grateful for...didn't fancy another 9 hour bus ride!!
I arrived in HoChiMinh and caught a taxi to my apartment which i again splerged on...a full one bedroom with a kitchen...yeh...i actually got to cook my own meals!!!...what a treat...vegetables that weren't overcooked....an amazing treat after 3 months of overcooked veggies....
The apartment was great, the hotel was lovely but this place is sooooo busy....have to admit places like that by myself are just plain old scary for me....after a trip into the market place and then being ripped off by the taxi driver i thought it best to just stick around my little apartment and the pool....time to just relax and absorb the last 3 months....
Had one last spoil on my last day at the hairdressers who do all manner of other spa treatments and i have to say it was the absolute best i've ever experienced overseas and in Australia....the guy who did my hair was actually quite good looking as well...by the end of the treatment i felt totally pampered and somewhat beautiful....it was nice feeling like a girl again......and wouldn't you know it...on my last hour of my trip the hairdresser tried picking me up....how nice did that make me feel!!!....no time for romance, have to head home now and face my reality with a new perspective..
the flight home was long and uncomfortable, not to mention the seemingly neverending turbulance that scared most of us on the flight.....
I arrived in Sydney and was running late to catch my domestic flight back home...i managed to catch the eye of one of the customs men and asked what time it was....i explained my international flight was late and that i have a flight leaving shortly....he pushed me ahead of the line which at that stage was about 50 people deep....my customs lady was lovely and took one look at my items to declare, had a quick chat with me and off i went...
29th January, 2011
when i finally touched down on the gold coast i cried...not because i was happy to be home but because it now seems like i lived an amazing dream with experiences that have touched my heart and changed my persepective and now that i am home i am scared of losing all i have gained.....do i have to wake up from this dream or can i now create a new journey and keep my new found heart connection at home where i felt i lost it in the first place....
I know it's time to move and rethink my life, there is now a lot to consider and a lot of changes to make....the next part of my journey is truly finding my feet and my purpose....something that makes me feel alive from the inside out....
I am scared but i am excited about what lies ahead....i finally realized that i am capable of doing so much more than i give myself credit for....and i can make a difference in peoples lives...even if it is just bringing a genuine heart felt smile to their day and sharing my love.
30th January, 2011
I know i am truly blessed to have had the time i had and the experiences i did and when i asked for a guru to come into my life i know that they arrived in their different sizes, shapes and ages to teach me....and to those amazing gurus who affected my outlook and touched my heart i have no words to match the deepest gratitude of those lessons you presented me....but my gratitude will hopefully now be in my actions moving forward in my next journey.
xxxx
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